Falling on my knees in worship Giving all I am to seek Your face Lord all I am is Yours My whole life I place in Your hands God of mercy Humbled I bow down In Your presence at Your throne I called You answered And You came to my rescue and I I wanna be where You are I n my life Be lifted high In our world Be lifted high In our love Be lifted high
The ways things are treated and done were much different from what I had expected. Reporting to work wasn't a huge task as the timing was flexible, as long as you finished your work; you could report at 2pm and it won't really matter, and there was only one off day a week. Attire wasn't a biggie either, life was quite laid back in truth. But what awed me the most was their focus, that working in a church fed our spiritual self, rather than working in a company that saps your time away, leaving your spirit dry.
As I was folding bulletins on Thursday, I read through a few chapters of Matthew, and in Matthew 6:24, it says," No one can serve two masters, Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money." So I guess what I am just trying to say is that, there are pros and cons to many things in life, like yes you can have more flexible timings and have things like jamming, recording and talking to students part of your work, and have to take note, that you don't earn as much as the people working in the big companies, all attached to their seats calling clients and stuff.
My main point is that, we have to do what we like and what we want to do, not just because it earns us a huge wad of cash, but more of why you chose what you are doing, and your reasons.
Today, we had to sign our mark sheets and stuff in school, sheet that make sure that we get the right grades and stuff. I mean like.. there were quite a few people that were upset and crying.. I wasn't sure what to do, cause I didn't know them to well and all, but I still wanted to help.
In a way, for me, I feel that it was only by God's grace that I managed to scrape through my sec 3, that it was only by His mercy that I passed everything else but chinese, and that I've also made a good improvement too! So I'm just going to take this entry to just say.. to just say how great is our God.
To be honest, when I first went to church and all, I didn't really believe that there was this one God that could help us in our lives cause I mean, it was just ridiculous. But now after the few years that have went by, I KNOW that He is there. During my e math exam, I felt over-crowded with stress and pressure till I couldn't remember my formulas right, that my mind was swirling in madness, I simply could not control my thoughts. Then the chorus of the song "He will carry me" just sprang into my mind and I just hummed the song a couple of times and thought about the lyrics. After a while, I just felt the thin curtain of calmness in my mind. Thin enough for me to notice that it was there, just enough to make me realize that I wasn't alone. Man.. that paper, I barely pulled through.
As I saw the people crying, I wanted to help them, but I didn't know how. So I'm just going to say this here, to the few people that know this blog. That I don't know how you feel, and I'm not going to pretend that I do. But I do know one thing, that no matter what you're going through, I've been there before, trust me, and God was the one that pulled me out, He was the one that helped me through the times where I thought there was no hope at all. So I just want to tell you to trust in Him with all your heart, that's all.
Don't think too much about it.. half cup full or half cup empty?
Today is a day to remember. It's the first time I woke up late on a church sunday.. man, when I woke up, glanced at my alarm clock and saw that it was 8:03, i realized that I was late! FIRST TIME EVER!!! ahhh!!!! hahahaha, went for the second service after that anywways.. haha
Found out from my mom that now we're moving in early nov, and she gave me a choice of a pool table or a foosball table, so I'm now torn apart! I love both games, but yet I only get to choose one! haha. Well, pool I can play by myself if I wanted to, but it requires quite some space. Whereas foosball requires less space, but you can't play it by yourself. Pool is a some-what slow game but fun, and foosball is way faster and also fun! sigh.. can't decide..
Exams are over now, and just realized that my days just seem so empty all of a sudden.. heh.. guess I need to prioritize my stuff well.. had to do some NIE survey thing today too, it asked about what I wanted to be when I grow up and other questions like that. Honestly, I don't think that far, the farthest I think or plan is a month away. sigh.. haha
